.....that I haven't kept up with in what seems like forever (ok, it only seems like forever because it has been forever). Kudos to Jen for keeping up the good work and carrying this blog on her back.
I'm not even sure what to write about. I don't know how to not sound like a broken record. I've been pretty complacent in my ways. I've had to give up running (ok, it was more like jogging with long bits of walking) because I'm having problems with my heels so I've been trying to hop in the pool for cardio...that goes well for a little bit and then it ends as sunbathing, which is me floating around on a raft...not so heart racing. I will say that I have seen the scale over the past month go from 186 to 188 down to 183.4 and back up to 187.6 (wait, haven't I been this weight before?)
What could I do? I could try harder, I need to try harder but at this point I'm at a loss. I'm a little burnt out. I'm sick of planning meals, I'm sick of watching what I eat, I want to eat a cookie, I want to have that big mac, but I also want that skinny body, those size 8-10 jeans, that flatter stomach.
I am at war with myself.